Hi, I wanted to write a bit and talk about myself. I think I need it to move forward. If you’re not interested in knowing me better, Quentin "Juskay" Aubert, you can just scroll and go to the next tweet.
I’m someone people call “hyper”, a guy who is always there to bring good energy. I’m naturally like that, and I don’t dislike it, but sometimes I feel like I look like a clown (maybe I am one deep down), just because I try to put everyone on the same page. I take all the focus on me so no one fights or blames each other, but because of that I often become the easy target, and it really affects me. I spend my time trying to make everyone comfortable, and in the end I receive a lot of negativity.
I play Valorant mostly because I love team play. I truly enjoy sharing my passion with others and feeling emotions together. It also comes with hard work. I give a lot when it comes to being serious in a team, and I do my best to help the team move forward by listening to everyone. But I also like when a team is more than just work. I want something like real brothers, where we would do anything for each other, with unbreakable trust.
Even in gameplay, I need something that I struggle to keep: I need full trust from my teammates to play at my best, both strategically and individually. I need to feel that they trust me, that they believe in me. I’m like everyone else in the end, but because I’m the “hyper” guy, people forget to think about me too.
I’m actually quite reserved, even if it doesn’t look like it. I wouldn’t say I have more problems than others, because everyone has their own, but I do have mine. Some have been here for years, others are more recent, but I try my best every day to fix things. I’m also very emotional. I wouldn’t say sensitive, but there are topics that I know will make me cry if I talk about them.
All my life, I haven’t really been accepted for the goals I set for myself. When I was younger, later when I was looking for a job but was too young, and even now on Valorant. I prove my value, but still no one really notices me. I don’t know how to move forward when my level improves but I don’t get opportunities.
To be honest, I’m not on Valorant to make friends, so I won’t force connections with a lot of teams just to get opportunities, whether it’s VCL or VCT. I just play with my teammates, and if friendships come naturally, that’s a bonus. But forcing relationships for opportunities is not something I like.
So far, the only chances I had in European Challengers were with Valiant, where Element trusted me for Split 2 2025, and then Idex who trusted me for the next split with F9. Outside of that, I haven’t had a single try in VCL.
I don’t say this with ego, even though I played with amazing players in Valiant. I still became French champion in my rookie split, finishing the season with a 1 rating while playing against the best French teams like VIT Aca, DVM, Mandatory, JL, etc. I don’t know if I’m wrong for thinking I performed well, or if people are just sleeping on my performances. But when I have the level and don’t even get tryouts to prove myself, and people judge me only from stats, it hurts a lot.
To be honest, even at Colors they didn’t want to try me at first because they thought I wasn’t good enough. But MSV pushed them to give me a try, and I surprised them on day one. It’s crazy that even in VRC, people struggle to see my real level. I bring something more than stats, and no one seems to understand it.
I just want to finally find that team that makes me feel alive down to my smallest atoms. A team where every player fully trusts each other. A team that is serious in practice but has a great atmosphere outside of it. A team where I can play the game the way I want, where I can unlock my full potential and help my teammates unlock theirs too.
A team of winners, but also real brothers.
I play Valorant just to find that “One Piece” moment, the day I wake up feeling good, knowing my day will be exciting, and that even if I have problems, my teammates will be there to support me with everything they have.
Thanks for reading <3
(Translated from french)