Today I must announce that I am no longer apart of Bingel Live.
While the details will remain private for the sake of those involved as I would never throw anyone under the bus I would like to state that I take full responsibility and blame that caused the events that transpired in this happening to me.
I broke a trust barrier with Matt that I doubt will ever be healed.
To the wonderful guests of Bingel Live I’m sorry that I’m not gonna be a presence there anymore and that I let you down and that some had to find out this way and that some may look at me differently after this.
To the fans and subscribers of the show I let you all down as a content creator as I made the biggest screwup of my career and I am sorry because of my actions I won’t be a guest presence on the show anymore.
To Matt Bingel.
I did something unforgiving but most importantly I put a huge tear in our friendship and partnership.
You looked up to me as I looked up to you and now I failed in being that someone you looked up to.
I blame no one but myself and words cannot describe how horrible I feel.
There are times where I made mistakes as a content creator in the 12 years I have been on the internet but this one was the biggest one I made to date and not only it has affected me but you as well.
I’m sorry Matt for failing to be that role model for you but I hope that with time and with healing I can apologize to you privately.
Despite everything I want to thank you for letting me be on the show when I was able to be on.
Every moment, every friendship and every fun and laughable moment we had together are memories I will never forget and despite that ending I have nothing but kind and respectful words to you and all on the show.
Thank you for being a role model to me despite me failing to be that to you.
Lastly to the CL9 nation I let you down most of all especially with having you all finding out this way.
I want you all to know that I’m not perfect as every person is not the perfect person but the fact that I’m taking the brave step in talking about this publicly, owning up to my mistake and most importantly being transparent with you all is scary but it’s necessary to do especially when you have lots of people who look up to you everyday and some even calling you an inspiration.
Despite everything I’m not giving up and I’m taking the mistake I made to educate and better myself and be someone who you can all look up to.
For now on a promise I can make to all of you is that I from this point on will be more open, more transparent and more importantly more honest than ever before with my fanbase.
Every single one of you who has subscribed, followed and look up to me are people that I cherish each and every single day and despite this setback I’m going to become the best person from this point on that you can rely on.
I will make mistakes but every mistake I make will be a lesson I will learn to become better.
Sacrifices and lost is a hard and terrifying thing but from this point on I’m not gonna make the same mistake I made ever again and that is a promise I make to just myself but to Matt and all of you too.
Thank you all for reading and let’s grow and become better together.
-Ry