2025 was rough

2025 may have not been the greatest year for me physically and mentally, but it has opened up my eyes on how friendship is and i learned that even when you think you have friends who have your back and care for you they will quickly do a 180 and leave you and block you, i did something in 2023 I wasn't happy i did but heres the thing, we are all humans, we all make mistakes, i was holding on to that incident for years but through that incident ive learned and fix my mistakes, and you think being an adult people would give a second chance and put the past behind, unfortunately people aren't keen with second chances and as soon as i put my walls down and was starting to come out my shell i was cast off, and when i needed people the most and needed comfort. It was hard losing my uncle, my grandma in portugal and my best cat friend and when i thought i still had some "friends" i can look too, it was a lie, i realize i don't really need a lot of friends online when i got my family to worry and take care of, this is also why i havent been active on the internet. Ive been going through the montions and feeling down when i realized i need to stop worrying about others, in the past no one really would reach out to me, i would reach out to others and send DMs but the moment i would say something no one would message me or reach out to me and i would feel alone like no one cared and I was alone, but i realize after that incident i still have a wife whos here for me and since my uncles passing i got back in contact with my direct family and even getting close to my brother and being there for my 3rd niece being born since i cut contact i wasn't there for my 2nd niece being born. I am not getting off the internet completely but i am probably done with the mlp fandom since most people i used to know and first met was a part of this fandom, im also being careful on who i let my walls down to and who im being open with cause i have trust issues and never know when someone will take advantage of your kindness, i do hope 2026 turns out good for me and that i dont have to do more mental gymnastics in my head, they do say friendship is magic but maybe that only works in the show and not in real life.