Reason why:
Before I say anything, I had to do this in google docs because twitlonger doesn’t work anymore. Well to start off, I retired from competing in the RLCS at the beginning of this season, I just didn’t put anything out till now. There are 2 big reasons why I decided it would be best. The first and biggest reason revolves around the 6 month offseasons. If you aren’t placing high enough around the top 8 area to keep an org throughout the offseason, you will come off salary and it will suck. As an adult, I would prefer not to go 6 months with barely any income. It logically doesn’t align with what my goals are in life right now. The 2nd reason was because of an unfortunate severe rib injury that occurred back in September 2023. I was unable to play much due to not being able to sit down without pain. I would force myself through the pain and play scrims twice a day, which not only felt horrible, but it didn’t allow my injury to heal. This was tough on me mentally because I was nowhere near ready to stop competing, I know I was still able to compete in RLCS and I had bigger goals for the new season. I eventually came to the sad decision after a few months of not being able to grind and realized that it would be better for me to just let it go. I did not want my teammates to have a worse version than what I could be, they deserved someone who was able to grind and improve with them.
General:
I am going to keep this very short because I know I don’t like reading long ass retirement posts. Not going to lie, if you would have told me a year ago that I would have retired this season I would have called you insane. Saying RL was a big part of my life is an understatement as to what it actually was. I am currently 20 years old and I have been playing since 13. During my early teenage years, I didn’t socialize much, so RL was like my home somewhat. I loved playing with all of my close friends throughout the years and making the best memories. I don’t know who I would be today if I never met the friends I made in this game. I absolutely LOVED competing and the adrenaline RLCS would give. Everyone who competes knows the amazing feeling of waking up the morning of main events, nothing can compare. If I was able to, I would have kept competing forever, it was no doubt the best job ever. I started off with the dream of making it into the RLCS one day and I accomplished it so I can’t be too sad about this. As a kid I was the biggest Squishy, Kronovi, and Jknaps fanboy. I would wake up early to watch all their games every week. Squishy’s youtube videos quite literally used to be apart of my daily routine. Getting to the same level as people you idolized from pure hard work really does feel good I can’t lie. I remember my first ever series in RLCS against NRG back in RLCS X Fall Regional 1, I was fanboying so hard on the inside, but I hid it because I didn’t wanna lose aura LOL. I enjoyed all my experiences in this game whether they were good or bad. I am thankful for all the lessons I learned from this game that can be translated to real life. It really was such a different experience that most people will never get to have. To everyone I met in this game whether it was a good or bad interaction, I am glad we met. I apologize to anyone who may have not liked me or aligned with views I had, in the end we are all human and I wish the best to everyone. Without all of my good friends, I would have never made it far. I will still be competing at the collegiate level and playing the game for fun, so my journey with the game isn’t completely over.
Appreciation:
Here are some names off the top of my head of people that I am glad I interacted with in the community. I am certain I will forget people due to the amount of people I have met, so I apologize in advance.
Sosa, Xpurt, Wellace, Indigo, Kinseh, M3, Daniel, Druee, Hockser, Azfura, Firstkiller, Beastaboniam, Cheese, Stokelyy, Frosty, Reveal, Scrzbbles, hockE, Ayjacks, Mclando, Fakey, Evoh, Zineel, Saucy, Repeat, Ostyn, Gyro, Mass, Andy, Breion, Creamz, Durtho, Evan, Flitz, Guard, Kofyr, Lj, Retals, Snaz, Arsenal, Spy, Scythe, Dino, Gear, GarrettG, Rawgreg, Aech, Jknaps, Squishy, Kronovi, Ayyjayy, Beastmode, Caz, Chiefwalrus, Chronic, Delta, Dreaz, Hazo, Kayex, Paarth, Jet-li, Cursed, Realize, Savvy, Toastie, Tool, Monster442, Angel, Mile, Wahvey, Jstn, Cam, Tcorrell, Rizzo, Ahduhm, Tbates, Fire, Alraz, daunt, blaze, dappur, fitz, mectos, omar, forky, gimmick, hato, zol, insolences, jordan, klassux, rdinkz, kahzii, hesi, mala, memory, mist, pirates, percy, ftmhere, sappy, flexmoh, mateo, remedy, salidow, peep, shock, threes, roll dizz, jg7, moneygo, pyroj, taroco, stealth, night, wondamike, xernite, cmun, yuildy, revenge, stephenj, savagelj/Reese, hntr, shauntv, achilles, zps, hummel, burns, geoids, kiwi,
Ik I forgot so many people and I apologize
To Sosa: Forever one of my best friends in life and I am beyond thankful that we met. I have never related to someone more in nearly every aspect of life. Like we said before, we are just different fonts of each other it seems. I used to look up to you back in the early RLRS days due to you being from Xbox and also being my age. I remember when you first joined my discord server “sup” back in early 2020 at the start of Covid. At first I was fanboying because you had aura ngl, but then I quickly realized that you were human just like me. You didn’t have some weird ego like most pros did when it came to talking to everyone in our server. You talked to us because you liked us as people and not because of our skill in the game. From that point on we developed an amazing friendship that I truly believe will last forever. Some of my favorite moments are when we used to grind rocket league in discord all day, play roblox during the covid nights with the boys, CRL, I could go on forever but you already know about all the good times. You are one of the hardest grinders out there in the world and I know you will succeed in whatever path you choose in life.
To Xpurt: Another one of my best friends in life. One of the funniest people you will ever meet, but realest. My duo dating all the way back to the xbox days back in 2018. Its actually crazy to think that we met when you were 12 and I was 14, we were just 2 kids with a dream on xbox. It was so nice having someone as solid as you by my side all these years not only because you were a good friend, but also my biggest rival. It seemed like we both improved at the same rate and we were always neck and neck with each other. You never failed to make everyone in Sup laugh, especially when Indigo was in the call LOL. I remember when you used to play in your living room with your kinect mic and all I could hear was your family talking the whole time. We really went from playing champ ranked on xbox to taking some of the best teams in the world down and placing top 8. Although you would stress me the hell out sometimes, since I was your alarm clock for scrims, I wouldn’t have wanted any other teammate throughout the years. I really wish we could have had 1 more season together, I know we would've killed it. I hope you go all the way in this game for me brotha
To Indigo: Another Xbox goat I met as a kid. You never fail to make everyone laugh with how dumb you can be LOL. Just hearing your stories in the call would always have everyone dying. It was so fun having you to grind with and rise up the ranks together, especially the rank A days. You are another person I know I will forever be friends with, throughout all the drama that ever happened, you were always someone I appreciated and respected. One of my favorite memories was when you and Xpurt would be in a call together and we would move you guys down to your own channel “the swamp”, only some know of that channel, but that shit was funny. It was peak whenever you and Xpurt would start flaming each other for no reason, but then start laughing because of how dumb it was. I wish we could all talk everyday like the old days, but we are growing up now so obviously priorities change. Thank you for being one of my best friends, we still gotta hang out sometime whenever I head to LA
To Wellace: One of the OG members of Sup. You are genuinely such an honest person and you have a good heart. You are such a real friend and you have made me laugh wayyy too many times with the shit you would say. I can never forget the prime days when we used to troll you for not being able to get out of b+/b. Whenever you would come in the call pissed after a 6mans series, it was so damn funny. Another core memory is when xpurt, you, and I won that monthly tournament at the start of covid against percy, radoko, and jruss. We were just randoms on the come up and that tournament showed us we could actually make it in this game. You have gone through so many challenges in life, yet you still found a way to make it into RLCS. I can't lie, myself and many others thought you were gone for too long to make a comeback and actually be good. I wanted you to make it so bad and with all the hard work you put in, you were able to do it. I couldn’t be more proud of you and I am glad you are one of my best friends. It truly is inspiring to see the sheer amount of determination you had to make it. With your work ethic, I am certain you will succeed in anything you choose to do in life.
To Druee: It is crazy how I used to dislike you, now you are one of my best friends that I can seem to relate to all the time. Although we haven’t been best friends for too many years, from the time I have known you, you have been one of the most solid men I have ever known. You can have some crazy takes at times, but I know most of them are troll just because I know you well enough. You never fail to make me laugh with the comments you have whenever people say something really dumb LOL. It is like you take the words right out of my mouth. You have solid work ethic with a solid mindset and I have no doubt you will do great things in this game. Thank you for being my friend
To Kinseh: One of the funniest people you will ever meet when you get to know him. I am so glad that Sosa and I hit you up for Fisher. You have such a unique sense of humor and you never fail to make every collegiate LAN a movie LOL. Whenever you really want something, you seem to do whatever it takes to get it, which is a great trait to have. Seeing you grow as a person throughout the years has been amazing. I really wish we still talked often like the old days, i'm in need of some good laughs. Hopefully we will play another lan together in the future dawg
To Daniel: Although we aren’t very close anymore, I am still glad we met. I met you when you were just a random b+ player back in early covid days. I still remember when I invited you to my server and you didn’t wanna say anything because your voice was squeaky. Once you settled in, you brought so much energy to every call and made every day the best. A core memory I have is whenever you, Forky, and I played the Johnnyboi fusion tournament together. That was both of our first Psyonix sponsored tournaments ever, and it was so fun. I knew back then you would become one of the best in the world and I couldn’t be more proud of you kid. Go win worlds for NA
To Ayjacks: You are someone I used to look up to back on xbox and my early days on pc. I remember seeing you qualify for RLRS and then playing in RLCS at LAN as a rookie. You inspired me to want to make it one day, you showed me it was possible to come from the box. Whenever we first teamed on eUnited, I was lowkey fanboying over being teamed with you, but obviously I can’t show it or -10000 aura. Although we didn’t have much success on eUnited due to our team chemistry, I still thought you were an amazing player, teammate, and friend. Whenever Hockser got picked up by SSG, I instantly told Xpurt I wanted to try you out because I knew how good you actually were. At first Xpurt was like yeah and he didn’t seem too excited, but once we scrimmed with you we knew you were the perfect fit. That Sup team of you, Xpurt, and I is my favorite RLCS team of all time. Not only were we way better than everyone thought we would be, but our bonding as a team was unmatched. I always remember looking forward to scrims because we always had some funny moments whether it was you singing some random country song, or all of us flaming the other team for being bad. Making top 8 with you and Xpurt is a memory in life I will never forget. Words can’t explain how happy I was. I apologize for not being the best teammate in terms of hours played towards the end of when we teamed, I hope that doesn’t change the way you see me as a person. Thank you for inspiring me as a kid and for being one of my best teammates/friends
To Hocke: You are somehow so funny even though you don’t say much. You are extremely smart and you have a work ethic like no other. I can confidently say that my career would not have been as good as it was if I never teamed with you. My first ever RLCS team of you, Xpurt, and I was something special. Just thinking about those days brings back so much nostalgia. We had so many close game 5s in RLCS, the first one that comes to mind is when we choke the lead against PK with a minute left to win. Although we never found success with the old squad, we somehow managed to team up for Fall split in RLCS 2022-2023 and surprised everyone. We were seeded extremely low and we even had to miss the first regional due to Xpurt not being able to make it. I will never forget after regional 1 when you said in the team chat, “Its not over”. That made me hard grind and sure enough, the next qual, we dominated in swiss and went 3-1 to make main event. That qual is one of my favorite memories because it showed what having good teammates around you can do. You were such a good leader for our team and a good friend. I am glad you are finding lots of success with TSM and in CRL, you are so underrated and you deserve the best
To M3: The brains behind my most successful teams. My teams would not have been nearly as good as they were if it wasn’t for you. I met you when I was trying with Tcorrell under soniqs back in summer of 2022. You noticed I had potential, so when T went to Ghost, you were willing to be the coach for whatever team I had. I got Hocke and Xpurt as a last minute team, no scrims at all, and you managed to transform us into a solid regional team. You not only made us improve drastically as a team, but individually with all of the knowledge you gave us. I don’t know how someone could be so smart when they never competed at the pro level. Your work ethic to make us better was outstanding, I still believe you are the best coach out there, you just need a major team to give you a chance. You were not only a good coach, but a good friend that I could always talk to you about anything. I remember just going into the scrim call with you 10-20 minutes early and just ranting about random stuff whether it was irl things or RL things. You stayed with us even when we didn't have an org and I couldn’t be more thankful to have met you. I truly wish you the best and hopefully you get your shot with a big team one day.
To Reveal: Although you are being fake now and not talking to me because you are good at the game, you are still someone I consider a good friend. I remember when you first joined treehouse with frosty last year in the beginning of summer and I joined the call asking who you guys were. Sosa told me you guys would go pro and I didn’t believe him at first until I saw your improvement rate and your drive to go pro. You not only grinded the game and improved quickly, but you actively watched replays to get better. You always asked us for advice on how to get better which is a big part in why I wanted to pick you up. Having a mindset that is open to constructive criticism is a big part in becoming successful. I won’t forget all of your cringe jokes you used to say in call, they always managed to put a smile on my face no matter how bad of a day I was having. I am glad you are doing well and I have no doubt you will be one of the best in the world one day. Keep grinding jack
To Frosty: You are a good kid with a solid work ethic, pretty much the same as reveal when it comes to improving. You are a great friend and I am glad we met. Keep grinding and you will be one of the best one day.
To Scrzbbles: Funny kid with a lot of drive. I met you back when you were 11 which is crazy to think about. I told you back then that you would go pro if you kept grinding and now look at you. Im happy to see you succeed and I better see you on top one day.
To Hockser: Goated player and extremely nice, I wanna see you go crazy at the next major/worlds, love you bro
To Firstkiller: Wish we talked more like back in the old days but I wish you the best with your future brotha
To Azfura: You are hilarious and the best sub ever, I will never forget that dub against CLT in game 7 with you
To Kofyr: You are a green f
To Beastaboniam: Good friend, and you are someone in this community that is very real. I am glad we met bro, keep up the gym grind
To Rawgreg: Amazing Coach and amazing guy. You are such a genuine person with good intentions and I am glad you found success coaching, you deserve it.
To Repeat: One of my close friends, you are so funny somehow even when you aren trying to be
To Cheese: A good friend with a good heart, glad to see you doing well in RL bro, keep it up
To Saucy: W fortnite player, W sub
To Zineel: Great teammate, W grinder, good friend, I wanna see you make a major bro
To Fakey: My gym goat and my glorious king. You were an amazing coach and friend, I am so glad we met
To Stokelyy: One of my favorite teammates and best friends from back then. You were so funny and real, thank you for best such a good teammate and friend, I wish you the best bro
To Mclando: Great friend and coach. You are someone who was very passionate about your job and I always admired that about you. You always have a funny comment to make in the most random situations. I wish you the best and keep up the gym grind brotha
To Gyro: We didn’t talk much till around summer last year but since then you have became a great friend and you are so underrated as a player. I have no doubt you will get back to the top
To Ostyn: W unc. In all seriousness, great friend with a good heart. You always had the most random comments ever in conversations and they were so funny. It was nice just being able to play a bunch of other games with you as well. I wish you the best dawg
To Andy: I remember getting farmed by you when I was going for X in rank A. You were a player I always wanted to team with because of how good you were, but I was never able to do so since you were just too good. Glad to see you doing well on moist
To Durtho: Xbox OG, 6’4, jacked, handsome, what more can you have. You are a great friend and it is fun talking about life with you. Hopefully I will see you again at another collegiate lan
To Evan: Goated npc
To Flitz: First teammate on pc and funny guy
To Evoh: Actual npc but its okay bc you are good at RL
To Tcorrell: Thank you for always being a good friend and for giving me a shot back then
To Guard: Cute guy
To Arsenal: Hilarious and really good at the game. Being in a call with you was always fun and the Terraria days were goated. Keep up the grind brotha
To Lj: My glorious king
To Dino: I wish we still talked because you always managed to make me laugh somehow, im glad we met
To Spy: You could have went pro if you just grinded bro
To Caz: The fifa days were goated LOL
To Fire: Honestly nobody made me laugh more than you back in 2019-2020, you were actually the goat, hope all is well
To Jet-li: Very genuine guy who is a force of good in the world, I am glad to be your friend
To Cursed: You are funny asf
To rdinkz: Your replies on twitter always have me dying bro LOL
To Monster442: Basketball head ahhhh
To Xernite: Xbox OG and one of the realest since the beginning. You always believed in me since I was a diamond player. Hope you are doing well
To Insolences: I wont ever forget the time when we teamed, that shit was hilarious
To sappy: One of the funniest people ever, haven’t talked to you since like 2019 since you dont play, but if you see this I love you
To flexmoh: Xbox goat
To mateo: Funny guy and good friend
I'm going to stop there because I have been typing this for nearly 4 hours and it is quite exhausting. There are a lot more people I have stuff to say about but just know I appreciate you.